[20:32:50] Chris : hi kate
[20:32:54] Chris : you wanted to tell me something :)
[20:33:03] Chris : i'm here now and neither busy nor absent
[20:47:35] Chris : so do you want to tell me today whats on your mind
[21:05:32] Kate : it seems less vital than it did yesterday morning
[21:05:47] Chris : ok
[21:05:54] Chris : your decision
[21:06:00] Chris : if you have to say something, i will be here tonight
[21:06:05] Chris : weekend i won't
[21:06:13] Chris : lots of things going on again in my life
[21:06:56] Kate : ok
[21:07:21] Kate : anything you want to share?
[21:07:34] Chris : hm let me think
[21:07:49] Chris : not really at the moment
[21:07:55] Chris : i'm rebuilding my personality thats all
[21:08:00] Kate : okie dokie
[21:08:19] Chris : i will be mean and tough again soon
[21:08:37] Chris : the way nature wanted me to be
[21:09:02] Kate : well good
[21:09:07] Kate : i plan to only be sweet
[21:09:31] Chris : you are kate
[21:10:39] Chris : i have come up with a plan for myself
[21:15:38] Kate : groovy
[21:15:42] Kate : my only plan at the moment is to enjoy myself
[21:15:49] Chris : true, true
[21:15:50] Chris : a good plan
[21:15:59] Kate : and i'm planning a couple of trips
[21:16:05] Chris : i thought so
[21:16:11] Kate : :)
[21:16:20] Kate : you know me well
[21:16:44] Kate : i want to see my hasher friend before he goes to the us for 3 weeks
[21:16:53] Chris : i have to know you
[21:17:06] Kate : so that is the first scheduled trip
[21:17:13] Kate : i just need to get the days approved at work
[21:17:39] Chris : i will meet old friends tomorrow
[21:18:17] Kate : i bet you are
[21:18:33] Kate : oh well
[21:18:35] Kate : i honestly tried
[21:18:41] Chris : tried what?
[21:18:50] Chris : to get the days?
[21:18:59] Kate : no
[21:19:05] Kate : not that
[21:19:09] Chris : what then?
[21:19:35] Kate : we just go back to what we were before as if nothing happened
[21:19:38] Kate : enjoy
[21:19:41] Kate : talk to you later
[21:19:48] Chris : yeah, you too :)
[21:21:56] Kate : hahahaha [this is where i really get angry because he's playing stupid]
[21:22:23] Kate : if you did pick up for a year to find a girlfriend like me, doesn't it make you wonder what you're doing it for this time?
[21:22:49] Chris : i know what i'm doing it for
[21:23:05] Kate : what?
[21:23:21] Chris : for me
[21:23:30] Chris : to become the man i wanted to be for my whole life
[21:23:38] Kate : you are never going to be him
[21:23:45] Kate : why can't you accept who you are and love him?
[21:23:48] Kate : i loved him
[21:23:53] Kate : he is a good man
[21:23:59] Chris : yes thats the problem
[21:24:03] Chris : a nice and cozy alpha man
[21:24:06] Chris : beta man
[21:24:06] Chris : sorry
[21:24:13] Kate : who the fuck cares?
[21:24:16] Chris : i care
[21:24:19] Kate : you are pathetic
[21:24:25] Chris : do you know the cornflake girl metaphor?
[21:24:29] Kate : and as you get older, you'll be laughable
[21:24:37] Kate : you already are, frankly
[21:25:02] Kate : i wanted so badly for you to open your eyes
[21:25:11] Kate : and accept the love i offered
[21:25:13] Chris : i have to grow more
[21:25:19] Chris : and i hate what i have become
[21:25:21] Kate : to have adventures with me
[21:25:26] Kate : to travel with me
[21:25:38] Kate : but for you, adventures = fucking women and bragging about it on the internet
[21:25:47] Kate : because that makes you feel like a real man
[21:28:02] Kate : i wanted us to [snipped for SOME privacy], go to the opera and the cinema, go swimming, take long walks, enjoy life together. but you aren't the man who wants these things.
[21:28:14] Kate : so fuck #42 if you haven't yet
[21:28:19] Kate : and 50
[21:28:24] Kate : and 60 and 70
[21:28:47] Kate : and tell the 20-year-old geeks how cool you are
[21:29:23] Kate : if only they knew what you gave up
[21:29:49] Chris : they do know
[21:29:58] Chris : but this is what happens when a man hears the call
[21:30:22] Chris : it's not the softness and cozyness that defines us
[21:30:28] Chris : it's the hardships and the effort
[21:30:44] Chris : and yes, this is the life that i want
[21:30:52] Chris : i had to decide
[21:31:10] Chris : play wow and wait to grow old enough to die while killing boars in elwynn forest
[21:31:12] Chris : OR
[21:31:17] Kate : THAT WAS NOT THE CHOICE
[21:31:22] Kate : DID YOU SEE WHAT I OFFERED YOU!?!?!?!?!?!
[21:31:24] Chris : what i have now
[21:32:05] Kate : [pasted what i said minutes before]
[21:32:13] Chris : ok
[21:32:16] Chris : i know that
[21:32:24] Kate : it was IMPOSSIBLE to get you out of the apartment the last time we were together
[21:32:32] Kate : that's not my fault
[21:32:35] Chris : but i have chosen otherwise
[21:32:39] Kate : ok
[21:33:01] Kate : so it's not that you chose killing boars versus that. if those men knew what you TRULY gave up
[21:33:12] Chris : they know what i gave up
[21:33:14] Kate : but they won't and that's fine. you can all play out your little game until you are old
[21:33:16] Chris : a relationship
[21:33:24] Chris : we know what a relationship is
[21:33:32] Kate : no, you have your own sick definition of it
[21:33:40] Chris : but i have joined the ranks of the seduction community again
[21:33:42] Chris : well, wait
[21:33:44] Chris : i will rejoin them
[21:33:45] Kate : fuck you
[21:33:50] Chris : have not done that yet
[21:34:02] Kate : i can't believe it
[21:34:04] Chris : they are my fraternity
[21:34:12] Kate : go to hell
[21:34:17] Kate : we can never be friends
[21:34:26] Chris : as you wish
[21:36:09] Chris : but it's your choice
[21:40:11] Kate : absolutely
[21:40:18] Kate : i already have a cocky pickup artist male friend; i don't need two of you
[21:40:27] Chris : you have one?
[21:40:28] Chris : who is it?
[21:40:39] *** Kate blocked Chris ***
[21:41:07] Kate : can you see it when i did that?
[21:41:31] Chris : when you did what?
[21:43:01] Chris : kate what do you mean
[21:46:38] Kate : i wondered if you could see if i blocked you on here and evidently the answer is no
[21:46:56] Kate : does it show me going offline?
[21:46:58] Kate : look now
[21:46:58] Chris : ok so if this is what you are going to do
[21:47:05] Chris : hm i didn't see you go off
[21:47:05] *** Kate blocked Chris ***
[21:47:13] Chris : however this seems to be your plan
[21:47:15] Kate : did it?
[21:47:32] Kate : hello?
[21:47:41] Chris : yes?
[21:47:43] Chris : what is it
[21:47:44] Kate : ok
[22:07:15] Kate : i will try not to block you on here in case you actually need to tell me something at some point but i did have to take you off my facebook
[22:09:31] Chris : why?
[22:10:35] Kate : because i can't watch what you're about to do to yourself; i love you too much for that.
[22:23:38] Chris : we have crossed the point of no return anyway
[22:23:41] Chris : so there was no need for that
[22:23:45] Chris : but it's your choice
[22:24:31] Kate : the point of no return?
[22:24:46] Chris : the point where we can't go back
[22:24:57] Chris : so you don't need to care anymore
[22:25:23] Kate : when can i expect you to call me and beg me to take you back?
[22:25:31] Chris : lol
[22:25:34] Chris : i'm a pickup artist
[22:25:54] Kate : you did it with [your ex]; i expect nothing less
[22:26:13] Chris : i'm past that
[22:26:29] Chris : that was before i became a man
[22:26:36] Kate : ok
[22:26:37] Chris : and while i lost much of my mojo
[22:26:42] Chris : i will regain it eventually
[22:26:46] Kate : don't make me block you
[22:41:08] Chris : i will go off now, kate
[22:41:15] Chris : if you want to talk again some day
[22:41:17] Chris : just contact me

And so I have taken him off my Facebook. I don't know why I have to pretend that I'm ok with the situation or be his friend. He wants to think that I'm still here for him, but he doesn't get that after what he's done to me.

I forgot to write that yesterday, Kosta (who is the guy I dated for a couple of weeks last year, even though he told me on our first date that I should lose 30 pounds, even though he was morbidly obese, and who was generally a real douchebag) had a status update on Facebook that made me want to claw my eyes out:

Kosta .. sees a new path layed infront. A long jorney will begin,obsitcles awaiting, ups and downs will go in circle..and after all, is it not the jorney of life that matters and not the destianation?..it is time to dust off the good old walking booths and follow the moonlight shining upon..

I shouldn't be making fun of anyone else's enlightenment, and he is a smart guy, but this makes him sound like such a dumbass.

Someone responded, "woww now you have become a philosopher like aristotle."

I really hope that was sarcasm but I doubt it.